Strait♥From♥My♥♥

and now even with his gf he can reassure me that i mean more to him than anything and that he loves me and he makes me happy again ^_^

through the good the bad and the ugly, through heart brake and longing for one another, through tough times of mine and his….

im in love.

hopefully i will get to be with this guy forever because he really and truely makes me blissfully happy

hearing about her makes me wanna stab myself

hearing that she’s with you right now makes me wanna stab both of you

i hate life more right now than ever before and iwant this cavity in my chest to be filled with you.

jerk face i hate you. i hate her. i hate this whole god damn situation. FUCK MY LIFE gahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Guy1: Its that feeling when your heart is ripped from your chest and your stomach drops. its the fear that comes with not knowing.


he chose her over me. he loves her more than me. she matters more than me.

he didnt brake my heart. he set it on fire and blew away the ashes.


Why do i have to care so much? Why do i have to fall so hard??

Guy 2: i hate guys, i hate that i have a weakness for them, well for one specifically that i cant seem to get over. i hate that i would still do anything for him. i hate that when i hear his voice i feel like nothing else can ever hurt me. i hate that she can be with him right now and i cant. i cant help but think that if i could be there we would have soemthing stronger than them. i cant help my feelings and i cant help wanting more right now. he says he’s been thinking and because of everything we’ve been through with each other and how trusting we are and we know we will always have each others backs that were “kinda meant to be” in the “hopefully near future” and he hopes were meant to be. but for now were in agreeance that other people are fine to go out with till we can be together and stay together.

when i look at other guys i dont seem them they way i see him. apparently he see’s other girls the same way he sees me.

so what do i believe?

we always go back to each other we cant stay away from each other even when i have a bf and he has a gf. that has to mean something does it?!

i love him and we both know that. he loves me and we both know that.

we dont hide it but we cant embrace it, where does that leave us????

im sick of waiting for us to be together without having to leave each other again. i love him and i want him for myself. it may be selfish but i will not cover my true feelings anymore i will do anything to have him.

i love him

Ive been doing alot of thinking lately, especially because everything is changing so quickly. life passes you by so there is no time for regret or worry. enjoy the moment your in. bypass drama because its stimply not worth wasting your precious time on. Love what you love and dont be ashamed no matter what. always be yourself and tell people to screw themselves if they have a problem with you. Never look back without a grin and keep them at a short glance through a photo album now and then. Be happy on a daily basis, strive to make yourself happy and not waste even a second of your precious lifes.

my heart hurts. idk what to do. they say time heals every wound but mine is still fresh. it still knocks the wind out of me and makes my eyes tear up to think about. i feel pressure in my chest and i wanna just curl up into a little ball and sob. when will this end? when will i heal myself and move on? i never know what life has in store for me next but please let it be good. I need something positive, something that will make me truely happy. ive never felt pain like this before. I’m scared and anxious and excited but being terrified like this is hard to handle. i know everyone goes through this but i really think most people handle it a little bit better than i do. i’m trying to just look towards the future in a positive mannor but as each day passes, my positivity is losing its effectivness on myself. =/